Wants or needs?

I want/crave/need some more of this right now

 

Ground UP agency. for 1979. Represent.

Let go and let god...or some other form of heightened energy.

I am so grateful to have the wonderful friends and family that I do.
Long live creativity and love <3

Throw it out.

A change of skin for you.
Can I not just for once be accepted as myself?
Must you always label things?
Do I have to choose? this is not for me,
It is For you.

Thinks sometimes that she should keep her creativity to herself because it always gets her into trouble.,
thinks she cannot be creative because she enjoys it, should she instead sell her soul to the devil.
Its important to find your light he said, with no consideration for her fragile footsteps towards the green pot of wellness.
Escape she thinks from his tight harness, an opinion un changed, can you not appreciate me for who I am an instead tell me
of a safer and less harmful way to jump into that river so green?
No because in your nature, you have to be condescending and mean.
I love you despite the unmasked surge of fear and hurt, you are part of the mother
and your energy is part of me.
I love you for you and I always accept what you say, perhaps to protect me you said what you said today.
This 3 dimensional view is painful but to you she should just deal with it and be superwoman.
However when she is superwoman and the minute she feels good, you feel the need to trample her wood?
It cannot be the grey spot of the film, instead its the exposed white or the deep deep dark black.
She wants you to be proud, but your confusing feedback is just oxy morical and loud.

Northern lights, eastern flights.

To spread your wings, to fly the nest.
A responsibility with no rest.
Alive and vivacious, to deal with the people surrounding you.

Im flying home to my mother, to the nurturing heart that brought me into this world.
I await with anticipation and guard to the penetrating energies of a city harsh and cold.
Hopefully with me I bring a refreshing love, a beautiful, a positive, a wonderful boy.

I look forward to the work to be done and the experiences to learn from,
however should a glee and nervous feeling not be hand in hand with pushing through old barriers?
A question dwelling as well as a heart swelling.
I cant help myself from exploring the curious world of new ideas, its sometimes as if I breath into my lungs an oxygen so pure one cannot mimic the nurturing creativity.
So Im going to shine, Im going to shine in this world of mine,
with him by my side.

Chandra

Sometimes as the Ice melts in my hands and the wind blows into my structure a peace can be felt with the dripping honey coming from within me.

Live. Love. Learn

Live is so busy, I miss the fashion industry. I felt socially inept today, Recently learned who my friends were, excited about the up coming show season and I just found a photographer in Hawaii who inspired me!
I've recently felt like running away to join a gypsy love circle, rolling around in the sand and then jumping off of a blue rock into the crystal clear ocean. free of all life's worries and full of wonderful beautiful photography.

Changes Changes Changes

Always changing, ever developing.
No matter the pace at which it moves, a constant flux of change is inevitable in the progression and growth of a being.
Learning to adapt is in our nature, or at least its in mine.
I used to get tired, now I just accept and move on.
I've found my comfort zone.

Equality.

Compassion, peace, Understanding, Acceptance.
Honesty, Beauty, Appreciation, Positivity.
Love, Trust, Unity and Equality.


''Follow me off the edge of the celestial sphere and into the cosmic abyss''

Late, later, latest.

I have now accepted that I will forever be the girl with 15 minutes disease.

Monday

Its monday, Im tired...
I strongly dislike this feeling, overwhelming course load, Unspoken judgements and no breakfast.
Going to get coffee
zongzzzzzz

Presumptions Assumptions and Hurt feelings

You know that saying ''Good things come to those who wait?''-
As far as my life goes, its been more like ''You make your own luck.''

I noticed recently I write best under extreme emotion or complete confusion (No matter how grounded I am on the physical plane). When I write my heart becomes the author, often it takes on its own path.
Right now I wish I had more control over the ideas in my mind- I think that would be going against my nature though, regardless of how accommodating it would be to other people. For the past couple of days I've been struggling to find a balance between being myself and pleasing the people I feel I need to, I don't really understand why I find it so pertinent to please these people either... more often that not It feels unnatural. The healthy thing to do would be to stop, and the comfortable to ignore.
Some people can be so goddamn immature about life (myself included)- its a complete waste of time. I understand a craving for drama but, really? Does it need to be this constant? Im a little tired of being the grape someone is trying to turn into wine. Its over and done.